By: Candace Elizabeth Brooks (a.k.a. Ariadne Phoenix Levinson), Uptown Dallas Art Collective Editor in Chief
Dear Supporters and Contributors to Uptown Dallas Art Collective,
Its been a little over 4 years since I came back to Dallas with my dreams of turning my Beethoven novel into a screenplay, starring Gary Levinson (as himself as Beethoven as all of the characters in the novel).
Derailed from job search
Researched faith community
Researched corporate outreach
Researched government & philanthropic institutions
I am ready to start saving for my own modest room and raise morale among the homeless community in the city of Dallas including myself.
Marilyn Monroe died at 36. I am going to be 35 on July 31. I am getting the urge to prove to myself that I have indeed accomplished something in my life, as it has always been my goal to do.
I am starting to feel the symptoms of depression, and I regret the onset of winter.
Having to leave the Apple Store so unexpectedly has made it necessary that I get my own room as soon as I can so that I can contact my friend who works at Apple Corporate and call him in a state of normalcy/life stability so that he will listen and help to change the environment over there on Knox St., which I allege is pervaded with antisemitic discriminatory/anti-progress energy.
I am confident that there are members in the community who have seen the kind of conduct/attitude I am alleging was projected at me and others by the workers there.
I am glad to have a smart phone but this kind of thing keeps happening, even now that I am no longer at Apple. I am stalked at the public library, and even my use of free WiFi is stalked at restaurants and Fed Ex Office.
Since I have been doing my research into the issue of group stalking as a quasi undercover journalist, and since I take my research in this way so seriously that I try to be a purist about it to the extent that I eschewed contact from my friends from my former life in High School, undergrad and grad school, in order for me to really get the most approximate version of reality/truth when trying to seek an answer to the question: “what is it like to be a homeless person?”, the only way that I will be able to communicate to those people who I know and consider my audience that my life as a homeless person is not really a veiled attempt to avoid them, is to show them that I am seeking and making plans to transition myself into my own room in a way that can be viewed as an example to others who find themselves in situations where they are forced yo depend on others, as a message to them that they don’t need to sell their bodies in prostitution or accept abusive environments/situations at shelters or even in relationships and workplaces.
Perhaps some of those who have contributed to UDAC on the street have wondered why I didn’t just save the money right away to go home as soon as I got pushed to defend my life at the street level. Maybe some of you are concerned that this behavior on my part doesn’t seem to betray an anxiety w getting back to my own home right away, and thus for this reason you might question my sanity.
My answer to doubts like these is that even if I had gone back to my old life right away, I would never be able to silence the suspicion that if I was treated with such misfortune (someone as hardworking as me, always concerned w following rules and living a responsible life), you can only imagine how badly other people had been treated who had unfortunately crossed paths w group stalkers. As a disciple of Ludwig van Beethoven, it is my responsibility to defend the ideals of egalitarianism that he martyred himself for.
Ultimately, the main message I am trying to convey to the citizens of this city is that I personally do not believe it is necessary to withhold basic human rights from people on the grounds that you disagree with their life choices. Also it is not my intention to leave Dallas. I hope to stay here and move forward with the plans for the Beethoven movie I came here with in 2013.